This is how you can tell I live alone

[powdered]

Re: This is how you can tell I live alone

Do you still live alone?

Nah, I was only at that place for like 2 months, I got a scholarship to go to Law school in Ohio, dropped out fast it wasnt for me,l yeah I felt really lonely at the time and LazyTown is my ultimate safespace (unless I'm getting judged. Now I live with my patents, my Grandma, and a friend of mine. I've had quite few good jobs, mostly in Accounting, but lost them all due to like 6 year long heroin addiction. Never married, no kids I had sexual problems with premature ejaculation when I wasn't high and it completely discouraged me and made me hate women. That"s why I love Lazyown, beautiful young girl with amazing talents an voice at an age where sex wasn't a consideration. I was always an athiest and decided I wanted to take a stab at my fantasy to become a serial killer so I could have sex with beautiful women without any anxiety (because they would be dead. I tried to strangle the first one in the front seat of my car car but she fought for her life, honked the horn opened the door /I lured her with drugs I didn't have. Long story short I made the decision to give up on women and try to change. I started praying to try to change, and long story short God stated talking to me to get me to honest and to realize I'm not allowed to try to kill women to fufilll the only dream I had ever reallly. I slowly had tio give up a serious relationship unless one can be ok with the real me. I was diagnosed schizophrenic, been clean off heroin for a good while, but now im into doing meth and going on porn binges to kill that bad part of me that made me a dangerous person. Jullliana made the most amazing music, she was unbelievably beautiful too, and best of all, she was the only girl in town. she's like my dream girl, so pretty and talented and I don't get the sexual attraction that makes me secretly hate a woman. I had so much LazyTown gear I collected and years back now my Mom found it and threw it all away without saying anything, she probably thought I was masturbating to a little girl like some wierd heroin addicted chimo. The bitch, I really miss my The Album and The New Album, I'm a diehard fan of the music and proud about it. Imagine 3 college sophmores hosting a cake bake with cooking by the book on the repeat in the apartment as a treat for me. I need it back, I'm in a great point in my life, most my friends are homeless, I'm in mental health court. I do drugs whenever I have the opportunity and find it hard to care if I live or die.

TLDR:

If you thought this was creepy for a grown man living alone to do ten years ago, you were right, I'm creepy as hell and officially crazy, but not in the way you would think. I wished she was my daughter, then I would feel happy and complete.

Anyways bro good to meet you, what's your story? I haven't really talked to LazyTown community since around that time, I got banned for getting pissed at or trolling the chimos on the LazyTown IRC channel. Yeah, hope those guys are long gone, they were shooping her face onto underage looking teen porn pics, questionable activities, I really don't her sexualized, she's like an Angel in those first two seasons.

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Oh what is this special member status I got btw?

[DRB319]

Re: This is how you can tell I live alone

@powdered It sounds like things have been rough for you lately but I hope your recovery goes smoothly, and I hope your family relationships are doing ok. If you ever need someone to talk to, we're here for you. Everyone on this forum has LazyTown in common, and age doesn't matter here.

Also, the Special Member status is usually given to people who have been members of the GetLazy Forums for a long time. You may have been given the status because you came back to the forums after being gone for a while.

[UnLearnEd]

Re: This is how you can tell I live alone

encouraging words

[DRB319]

Re: This is how you can tell I live alone

Only I can tell you things do improve when you stop trusting in your own strength. That way you still try to change, only are looking & listening for what you're supposed to do. And here is a perfect reason for us guys to stay alive: to find out if we ever become happy or complete.

I agree wholeheartedly. No matter what you're going through, it's like Stephanie always says: "There's always a way". No matter what you're going through, always keep in mind that the bad times won't last forever. We all have a lot to offer to this world and we sometimes find happiness on unexpected paths.