Things Will Be Different (Life is Complicated)

[Howard the Duck]

The soul is imperfect; life is difficult.

[Mosheddy]

I was close,
to drifting out of place
to rearranging my life
the stress
kept me always awake
i can’t
and couldn’t
stand all the pressure
i just needed my space
after i lost a love in my life
Even after winning love’s race.
With every intent
of finding new Love
I found it
now gone
My problems a-strung
I look back, a year
when only two days have passed.
I can’t see much futher
along Love’s foggy, unclear path.

I wait for the day
that love may return,
a promise I’ll keep
For the love I hope to earn.


Forget I Ever Said Anything
by Ian Suri
Sep. 11, 2005 @ 1 AM

Whisked up on an ever dazing,
Whisked upon a daring flight.
My eyes fall to you, ever gazing,
Whisked up in the dead of night.

Ever loving,
Ever longing,
Ever wanting you right here.

Ever needing,
Never stopping,
Love proclaimed, loud my dear.

Inked in pain,
And signed with blood.
Torn apart,
Noosed and hung.

Dangling up on a platform,
Feet just missing the dirt ground.
A first for a guy left high and dry,
As he walks along, there is no sound.

Dreary,
Beaten,
Sent a daze.
Stars send me toward a blaze.

Buzzing thoughts of death now near.
What is rejection, when death is not to fear?
Moving on,
Forgetting you,
Fading away over yonder blue.

And now,

As the sky blackens,
I look down on you,
And see your heart has blackened, too.
_________________________________________

I’m Gone
——————
I’m still Bored,
I’m still not praying to your lord,
Can’t sleep in dad’s old Ford,
So I’m running away.

Can’t think straight right now,
Can’t realize my dumb,
Can’t look at this life,
As being right anymore.

Can’t love you that way,
Can’t be with you here.
Can stay for a while,
The old pain still sears.

Can’t want you anymore.
Can’t want our old times.
Can’t share our old memeories,
When you look for me, in our love you wont find…

What I hid there,
My feelings all spilt,
Our lies on the table,
Confessions and guilt!

Our lies on the table,
Our fate intertwined,
Can’t cry on my shoulder,
In our love you wont find…

7.23.05
Ian Suri
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